added some notes from reading and a few others

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+A pine cone falls. A nuthatch calls. Then Chickadee dee dee. There's the soft crunch of leaves muted by matted pine needles. In front of me a ant picks it's way through the forest floor debris. it is so quiet and still in here sometimes. Then a crow breaks the silence
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+"Do not browbeat your faults. The moment the tension of effort arises, failure is inevitable. Those who try desperately to live up to certain moral virtues are constantly failing. All selfgovernment arises from inner realization which automatically overcomes the resistance of the outer personality and accomplishes reform. In metaphysical disciplines you do not kill out faults; you change the focus of the mind. That upon which we focus our attention is real, and that from which we remove our attention ceases to exist. Do not try to destroy evil; posit good. Do not destroy the body; posit the consciousness. Do not attempt to destroy vices; posit virtues" p 27
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+"Realization results from discipline. Discipline has long been interpreted as self-control, or as some would say, “the overcoming of the lower nature.” The difficulty is that such words as “conquest” and “overcoming” suggest an entirely inconsistent aggressiveness of technique. The true metaphysician is not a wearied man wrestling with his lower nature; rather he is poised and relaxed, achieving through realization instead of conflict. Avoid the process of suffering your way into a spiritual state. A student who constantly must curb his animal nature by various types of vicarious flagellation will have to learn personal detachment." (1773514628)
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+"Living is a motion toward perfection through Law. The disciplines of meditation and realization enrich and perfect living by developing the understanding. By understanding we gain reason, and reason in turn bestows the courage and integrity necessary to high accomplishment." (1773514628)
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+"A wise man living in the physical world does not desire wealth. He desires peace and security, regarding contentment as more than riches. The sincere student, likewise, does not desire the gratification of his ego, but an internal well-being which is more than all the treasures of the earth. He does not desire to be greater than another man. He has come to the realization that greatness is relative and illusionary. The student, therefore, seeks first the Law and its workings, gaining therefrom the treasures of wisdom." (1773514628)
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+"That which is real can never be destroyed, and that which is unreal can never be preserved. The wise man detaches himself from inconsequential controversies." (1773514628)
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+"Man has forty-three brain faculties. When one or two of these faculties are developed out of proportion to the rest, a form of vampirism results. The highly developed faculty draws to itself the blood and energy which should be evenly distributed. Thus, as anyone faculty increases, the power of surrounding faculties are proportionately depleted. The one faculty is vampirizing the others." (1773514628)
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+"While one-pointedness is now called genius, and the narrow-minded have inherited the earth, it still remains philosophically true that narrow-mindedness is a disease, one-pointedness a menace to normalcy, and one exaggerated virtue the worst vice that a person can possess." (1773514628)
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+"No one is suffering for the sins of another; no one is in a place which he has not earned for himself; no one deserves more than he has; and no one should be happy who is not." (1773514628)
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+"Yet it cannot be denied that there are “words of power.” Also that certain rituals have a magical effect. But the modern metaphysician is not sufficiently informed to dabble in magic. It is unnecessary to his spiritual development. As the great transcendental magician Eliphas Levi admitted, it can easily become a blind alley. As all mudras and mantras are exceedingly dangerous for the inexperienced, being in the same class as the chakra development exercises and the yoga breathing exercises, such disciplines have been carefully eradicated from the teachings of these pages," (1773514628)
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+"you must bear in mind that you begin in peace and end in the turmoil of life. You begin by yourself, but in the end you must learn to meditate among all men. You begin in comfort, but gradually you must learn to meditate amidst discomfort. You train yourself in order and rhythm so that you can do that for a few seconds which later you will be able to do at all times and any time." (1773514628)
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+"So often people say: “My daily meditation gives me the strength to go on in a life that otherwise would be too difficult.” With such a motivation failure is inevitable. Concentration cannot be an incident in the midst of contrary incidents. It must be intimately correlated to the whole pattern of living or it will not succeed, and the time devoted to the effort will be wasted." (1773514628)
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diff --git a/Story of Dave and buff and that house work from home.txt b/Story of Dave and buff and that house work from home.txt
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+Story of Dave and buff and that house work from home
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diff --git a/corrinne.txt b/corrinne.txt
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-I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, most of it at unfortunate hours of the night. but then I've been trying to make an honest, critical assessment of my life and somehow that just seems to come up more in the dark.
+https://www.amazon.com/HIC-Harold-Co-60105-Dexter-Russell/dp/B002CJNBSK
 
-The past week or so that I have been away I have been thinking about our relationship. I don't know how it looks from your point of view of course, so I may be way off here, but I think I have been a great friend, a pretty good husband, and a really lousy lover. It's that last one that keeps me up at night the most. I don't know how I got us here, but I want to lead us out of here to somewhere better.
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-Have you ever wanted something so bad it literally hurts? I wake up all the time in the middle of the night aching for your touch, and I know that sounds really cheesy, believe me I spent considerable time trying to think of a better way to say that, but in the end it best describes how it feels, I just ache for you. Like the soreness of muscles, I ache to touch you, to feel your lips brush against mine. And they never do because I let my own fear and embarrassment get in the way of what I want. 
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-Years ago when you told me that physical intimacy and sex were sometimes difficult for you, unpleasant even, it scared me. I didn't know how to deal with that. I didn't have the courage to ask you about it. I didn't know what to do. So I did the easy thing. I shut down. I ignored it and focused on the things I could do that didn't scare me, like being your friend. That was a terrible mistake I've been living with ever since. 
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-I cut that intimacy out of our relationship and then, after a certain while I no longer knew how to get it back. And I'll be honest, I am still scared sometimes, and now I don't know how to get that intimacy back. 
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-But I know that I want it back. I want your touch. I want your body. I want to feel your lips on mine. I want to touch your skin. I want to feel you under me, beside me, on top of me. And I know we don't have the bodies we once did, but I don't care I still love them. Sure, my stomach could be flatter, my legs more hair, my throat less weirdly saggy and a million other things I might change if I could. But I can't. And I don't think at the end of our days we're going to say to ourselves, "thank god we didn't have sex because our bodies didn't meet the stereotypes our culture instilled in us." 
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-I mean maybe. Maybe it's just me. Maybe you're like yeah fuck that guy, I've got my Scottish time travel romance novels and my super vibrator and he can go jerk it in a corner somewhere. I know I don't deserve better than that for leading us here. 
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-Here was never where I wanted to go, but, if you'll pardon the sailing metaphor, that's what happen when the captain abandons the helm. The ship drifts aimlessly. Still, to give myself hope I always think, why Scottish? Why not Welsh? Why not Irish? Maybe because my name is in it. Yes, that's dumb, but when you're laying awake in the middle of the night trying to figure out different ways you could seduce your wife all sorts of silly things come in your head.
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-I try to live without regrets, but I have a few. This the one: I let our relationship lose that intimacy. I gave up on sex with you. That was a huge mistake. Alas I can't take it back. I am hoping maybe it's not too late though, that I can fix it.
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-You know I can remember in great detail -- great, great detail -- nearly every time we've had sex? I think about those moments all the time. They are my favorite moments in this life. I remember every detail, the way your skin felt, the way you tasted, how our bodies were in entwined, the wet warmth of being inside you. I want all that again, and I don't care what I have to do to get it. I am tired of laying over here just wishing for it. I need your help. I need to know more than anything if it's something you want too. And right now I don't trust myself to get all this out without writing it down, so that's what I've done.
diff --git a/quotes.txt b/quotes.txt
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 quotes
 
+"I thought, this is too stupid. This must be a bug. But I got back to the New York Times reporter and I said, look, if you want to talk about your problems, if you’re lonely, if you're fearing death—you really have to talk to somebody who has a body. It has to be somebody with some skin in the game. Pretend empathy is not what people need right now. And pretend empathy is what it is. If we just give our children and ourselves pretend empathy, we’re in risk of losing our sensibility for how important the real thing is. I think that’s a big danger. That we get so enamored with what machines can do that we forget what only people can do." Sherry Turkle https://www.wired.com/story/sherry-turkle-new-memoir-loneliness-going-remote/
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 "By destroying pagan animism, Christianity made it possible to exploit nature in a mood of indifference to the feelings of natural objects" -  from a 1967 essay written by the historian Lynn Townsend White Jr 
 
 "the world is your bedroom, as it has been since the dawn of time." http://tomallen.info/how-my-location-independent-lifestyle-works/
diff --git a/todo.txt b/todo.txt
index 33484b6..8919114 100644
--- a/todo.txt
+++ b/todo.txt
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 # Today
-    [ ] caulk bottom of wall before installing +bus
-    [ ] Writing Friends newsletter on barbarian days +lux
+    [ ] Install new walls in front below doghouse
+    [ ] cut and sand trim for below doghouse
+    [ ] measure speedo cable housing/sleeve @buy +bus
+    [ ] SRC: add sign up form to individual posts somewhere
+    [ ] Finish sanding and seal molding for overhead cabinet 
+        and walls
 
-## This Week
-    [ ] List sigma 28mm on eBay
+## This Weekend
 
 # Personal
     [ ] List Parrot Drone on eBay
     [ ] List Lenovo x250 on eBay
-    [ ] List sigma 28mm on eBay
-    [ ] List canon 50mm on eBay
-    [ ] List Minolta 100mm on eBay ???
     [ ] Take TriX portraits of kids
+        - add sign up friend form to jrnl posts somewhere
+
+
 # Bus
     [ ] exhaust manifold gaskets @buy +bus
-    [ ] speedo cable housing/sleeve @buy +bus
     [ ] water jacket bolt @buy +bus
-    [ ] replace insulation in ceiling and wall +bus
     [ ] 5/8 ply for new kitchen counter @buy +bus
     [ ] fix temp sensor in oven +bus
     [ ] fix rip in dinette seat +bus
     [ ] glass for instrument panel @buy +bus
     [ ] Where to put shunt meter +bus
-    [ ] Redo driver's handle +bus
+    [ ] Redo driver's side handle +bus
     [ ] Tighten antenna +bus
     [ ] Add roof antenna mount +bus
-    [ ] Re-seal rear hatch cover +bus
     [ ] Replace cockpit base wood +bus
     [ ] Redo all moulding, thinner in front +bus
     [ ] Rebuild kitchen counter +bus
     [ ] Finish wash/wax +bus
     [ ] Paint bumper +bus
     [ ] Re-seal inner part of hehr kitchen window +bus
+    [ ] Fix ebrake
 
 # Done
 ## 2021-02-15
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     [X] Edit Video of Kiva image
 ## 2021-02-18 
     [X] Finish Video of editing Highway in trinidad +lux
+## 2021-02-19 
+    [X] Buy garlic, selenium, cell salts
+## 2021-02-20
+    [ ] caulk bottom of wall before installing +bus
+    [ ] replace insulation in ceiling and wall +bus
+## 2021-02-23
+    [X] Mail Nikons
+## 2021-02-28
+    [X] Write Friends newsletter
+    [X] Re-seal rear hatch cover +bus
+## 2021-03-01 
+    [X] List canon 50mm on eBay
+## 2021-03-06 
+    [X] Pay SD registration
+    [X] Launch SRC as mailing list
+    [X] Range: add sign up form to Range individual posts below nav
+## 2021-03-07 
+    [X] List sigma 28mm on eBay
+## 2021-03-20 
+    [x] order new seal for door so it doesn't leak @buy
 
 # Buy
+2021-03-19 Zoom H5 Field Recorder $250
+2021-02-15 needle nose pliers 
+2021-02-28 midi controller https://www.amazon.com/midiplus-32-Key-Midi-Controller-AKM320/dp/B00VHKMK64
+2021-03-02 pentax 20mm f/2.8 https://www.ebay.com/sch/i.html?_from=R40&_sacat=0&LH_TitleDesc=0&_nkw=smc+pentax+a+20mm&_blrs=spell_check&rt=nc&LH_Sold=1&LH_Complete=1  https://www.flickr.com/photos/tags/smca20mmf28/page4
 https://www.milwaukeetool.com/Products/Power-Tools/Combo-Kits/2-Piece-Kits/2494-22  2021-01-11 
-New drill bits 2021-02-15
-needle nose pliers 2021-02-15
 
 # Read
 Jack London's The Road 
@@ -61,6 +84,3 @@ Wallace Stegner, Crossing to Safety
 Edward O Wilson, On Human Nature
 Helena Drysdale, Mother Tongues
 Hugh Kenner, A Homemade World
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